Fool's Overture. How sad.

This is my wonderful Ipod.  I have over 14,000 songs on it.  I'd have more on it..................if I hadn't lost all interest in music recently.  Not only lost interest, but actually can't listen to anything.  I'd been inspired by a special friend over the last year to reconnect with music that I hadn't cared about in years, specifically classic rock, and connect with music I didn't like in the first place.  Motivated by my friend, and given the discovery of dirt cheap downloadable music, it was amazing how much music I was downloading from bands that I heretofore had no interest in.  Now I was listening and enjoying and looking forward to downloading a ton of new classic rock.

So many old songs I hadn't cared about in years.  So many new songs that I now gained a special appreciation for.  And numerous playlists that I was inspired to begin developing..............and dreaming of using those playlists someday at the right moments and in the right places.  A new playlist for different special places and future times back home.  Music to lose yourself with that special someone.  Music to hold, cuddle and dance with.  I'd name them here, but it would hurt too much.  And so much music to burn and share.  Listening to music had become fun again and sharing it had become even more fun.  But now I can't listen at all.  I don't think there's a song that won't remind me.

So much of it took me back to my days at home.  I'm so homesick.  I want so much to go home and live my fantasies.  I'm so bitter.