Thanksgiving

Hastened by needing to get to the airport early this morning, I got up very early this Thanksgiving morning to take my dog for his run.  It was mid-50's and very damp from the previous day's rain.  The roads were wet and there were leaves everywhere.  It was much quieter than normal, as one would expect.  The hum of the city and some occasional traffic was there.  Still, the difference was noticeable.  I've always enjoyed getting up long before dawn on Thanksgiving and Christmas to take my dog or run, because it's one of the few times I can be one of the few in the world who are up.  Everyone sleeps in on those days.  I like being up when others aren't.  Just another indication of how I really do not like the world and just want to be left alone, for the most part.  I do want to be alone....................or atleast have the option to be alone.....................well, except.....................but that's a given, and the exception.  If I can't have that, then I'd just rather be alone.  I will have to be with my family today for Thanksgiving.  I do not look forward to it.  The only thing I'm looking forward to is getting on that plane and escaping my life here for a few days.  But it will be only a token escape.  How I long for true freedom..............and peace......................and true love.